Back On The Ball!

Mine and James breakfast

I am completely ashamed of my self. This weight loss trip seemed to be like all the others because I became pray of the "I am too busy to workout and eat right" mentality.  But anyone can fit that in their life no matter how busy they are. "Those who do not find time for exercise will have to find time for illness".  The other reason I have been MIA is that me and my boyfriend  both got sick because of the winter months and did not have the strength to work out and cookies were just so much more appetizing.   I don't like my current weight and I am ready to do something about it!  I am not paying $35 a month just to gain weight now!  Right this second I am so sore because yesterday I hit the gym hard. I did a mile on the treadmill, did some weights, played racket ball and went swimming.  Yes I over did it.  Summer is on its way only 16 weeks until June 14th (Kevin's Graduation day) and when that day comes I need to be in a bikini! That is really scary! However, if I really crack down and lose a healthy 2 Lb a week I can lose 32 Lbs in this time frame. "fingers crossed"! I know I cant spot reduce but I think if I concentrate on my stomach I can get mussels and a flat tummy. I am at a good start this morning I am proud of myself. But day one isnt the hard one it is the days that follow.
Really small ways to fit exercise in the day

• Dance when I wake up and get ready in the morning
• Do a quick ten min work out or at least  50 situps before school
• skip or run to class
• Pace when I talk on the phone
• Take my dog on a walk and spice it up with interval running jogging walking 
• Jog in place or crunches during commercials
• Make exercise a priority so if I think I don't have time for exercise think "do I have time for this tv show, Do I have time to be on the internet?" Time is consumed very quickly by the media. Like right now I could be jogging or something.

Unachievable body in 16 weeks but my dream  bikini body

 Let's Do This!

Broke Every Rule In The Book

Well this past weekend was a million steps back from what I am striving for.  I did a rode trip to Washington to see my grandma Susan then went to Oregon for my Grandma Kathy's Celebration of Life.  I hit up fast food for every meal on the road and when I was at a home I was shoveling chips, chocolates and what ever else I could get my hands on.  This is how bad I messed up-

Yeah I was Bad- Eating Dirt Donut

• I haven't ate McDonald's in over a year, now I ate McDonald's Friday January 7th. I had a McChicken and shared a small fry.
• I waited 45 min in line in Portland Or. for Donuts from Voodoo donuts on Saturday the 8th.
• I haven't eaten beef in 2 years and on Saturday 1/08/11 I ate meat balls in my spaghetti because my aunt who I haven't seen in 10 years made them and I didn't have the heart to tell her that I don't eat beef.

Now I am back in town and ready to start fresh.

Voodoo dozen

New Year, New Me :D

 
Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.  ~Oprah Winfrey


2011 Is here! I want to make an impression, I want to make this year count.   I have many high end goals and expectations of myself...I always do. One thing that my boyfriend gave to me as motivation for this year is that no matter what, even if I don't lose any weight, I have to wear a bikini this summer :0. That is enough motivation I am sure! Now if only he would stop tempting me with candy, fast food, and sleeping in instead of going to the gym. Hey a girl can dream!

My Health New Year Resolutions

• Lose 50 Lb
•  By- working out 3 days a week min
• Drink 6-10 glasses of water a day
• keep eating out to a min. only maybe 3 times a month
• Do 2- 5K's : Susan G Koleman and the Turkey Trot 

Things to do this month that will keep me on track

•  Write my goals places I look- Purse, fridge, collage/ wall, computer, bookmark
• June 4th have lost 35Lb min hopefully 46LB
• Record my successes, progress, learn from my mistakes, bad days
• Make a motivational goal collage
• Focus on what I have done not dwell on the negative
• Write a list on things I do well, abilities and talents
• Reward myself for each milestone but not bad stuff like food or not working out but with new clothes, massage, vacation, movie, a book
• Put a sticker or draw a star on a calendar each day that I have a good day
• Add variety, try new things to keep me excited

Acne

I have struggled with my weight and with acne all my life. My face can get pretty good now in days and then all of a sudden my pores have a mutiny against me and declare war.  After starting to work out my face broke out near my hair line were the sweat was dripping. Now that isn't an normal place for me to receive acne for mine has always been predominantly on my checks.  I got these Proactiv body pads and let me tell you they work wonders! The angry zits that were screaming to get out around my hair line were sent yelling like babies away from my face. now I still have bad acne on my checks which I hope I can solve by starting to use proactiv everyday but we will see. I will defiantly say to use these they have acne medicine in them and are a life saver. Very travel friendly and easy to just carry in my purse. I use them on my face chest and back after a work out. I would hate to be all sexy and slim but with a pizza face :[

Food Review- Great Value Lean Cafe Sesame Chicken

I have wanted to start doing food reviews along time ago with this weight loss journey, an idea that I actually ninja from a fellow weight watcher weight loss blogger. But as life goes things got in the way and I haven't had a chance to write about the many frozen dinners I have ate this past month.  Last night however I force fed my self the most disgusting pile of s*#t of a frozen dinner I have ever eaten in my life that pushed me over the edge to write this review.

I don't eat beef which is what was on the menu last night  at my boyfriends house so I popped in this little cheap meal that was in the refrigerator.  Honestly I didn't check the point values on it at first but after I ate I found out it was worth 9 points!! I get 29 points for an entire day and many delicious frozen dinners are worth 7 new point plus value- 5 points.  Initially the amount of food in the black plastic was exciting because it was quite large. I tasted the dish is the kitchen and it was so bland! No favor at all so I put some salt and pepper in it. It wasn't enough!  I wish I put hot sauce but they were all out.  The chicken was so soggy D: My boyfriend had to move away from me because he couldn't stand the smell.  From afar he contentiously said "babe No, Why? Throw that away. Are you serious?"  I will never again buy this product again or assault my taste buds with this horrible meal, I do not care how hungry I am or if I had a million points a day 9 points to have this horrible dish again will never happen.

Holiday Sabatoge

Starting a new lifestyle around the holiday time is extremely difficult. Only the tough and mighty will triumph and I have proven to not be among those.  So many get togethers that revolve around food, dates because your souse wants to treat you to a nice meal, holiday overcooking, overeating, multiple dinners when you have to split your time between different family members, and now left overs of the sinfully delicious food.  I am ashamed to say that I believe that I gained all my weight back.  I don't want to make excuses and wait til January like most people are I want to start now! Everyday is a day that you can get your life back on track and everyday that you don't get back on the horse is another day of your life that you just wasted.  I don't want to spend even extra day with this weight but I am still vulnerable. I still have cravings, over eat, and cant say no to desert or going out to eat. But everyday I will get stronger and will reach my goal.  My boyfriend loves me for me and doesn't want to change but says he is ok with my weight loss decision. He tries to be supportive and soon he is going to get a gym membership also for motivation and competition. His food  support is more on the rocky side however. And that is where my inter strength is going to have to grow stronger.  I cry when I see my self naked and I am so disturbed about my looks. This is terrible to my self esteem but I am ready to stop complaining and just do something about it!  Tomorrow I will discover if I lost or gained weight but I will not hold my breath for a lost.  Happy Holidays everyone!

Personal Trainer

My Trainer Cheyne Inman

Wow my Muscles hurt! Muscles that I didn't even know I had hurt! Last Thursday I had my first personal trainer session and he just showed me how to use all the machines correctly and talked about my health goals. I defiantly feel more comfortable with the scary weight room. I now know though how important it is to strength train as well as do the cardio. Yesterday I had my second personal trainer meeting at the Holiday location (they have a bigger strength training area). My Trainer, Cheyne Inman, is amazing! He made me do so many different machines for my arms, abs, and legs. I did 2 sets of 10 reps each on most of the machines.  I am so excited to go back on my own and work out! but you are not suppose to strength train everyday you need to give your muscles time to heal.  You can do cardio and ab workouts everyday but lifting weights needs some breaks.

I didn't go to my weight watchers meeting this Monday (I know bad girl) but I think I am going to go tonight but not weigh in just get this weeks weekly.  I really need to make sure to go every chance I can because I am not going to have the membership for much longer.  I deffently want to get a whole plan figured out before the first of the year because then I am going to kick ass and get 50 pounds exterminated!

Binge eating

Brain Zoned out on the T.V. screen as my hand mindlessly shovels all the food in the general area down my throat. My stomach is full my hunger was subsided yet caramel popcorn, chocolate, crackers, gummy bears, extra bowel of chicken soup is eaten in large amounts.  URRGG I feel so disappointed! I am an emotional eater and a binge eater and this week did not go well.  I am going to forgive myself though I can't change what have happened in the past it is just time to move on and try to make better decisions. 
Way I am planning on trying to end this problem-

• Really write down what I eat. Yes I have ended my weight watchers but I still have the membership right now AND part of the agreement of when I stopped weight watchers that I was going to continue to do weight watchers but I have to keep myself accountable.   This week was tough because I was very upset and crying about personal reasons, I was at home around sweet fating treats, and my Aunt Flow was in town. 
• Eliminate the possibility of eating by putting the food away or telling someone around me to stop me from eating.
• Go to sleep I notice sometime when I am tired I continue to eat to stay awake.
• Really think about what I am doing. I don't have to be a mindless drone. I can think am I really hunger? Why am I eating? What is another way I can deal with my emotion?
• I can go walk a mile or exercise. Maybe after that it will have curbed my appitite or distracted me. Or maybe I will want it more but have "earned" it. Or I can come on here and complain my little heart out on here to give me the strength to not over fill myself.
• Give my self 20 minutes before eating more. It takes 20 minutes for my brain to tell my body I am full.  
• I am going to drink more water. Not only is it healthy for me and has so many health benefits it will make me fill fuller.

Ok so one of the big problems is that I know I am not hunger or I am already fully stuffed but I still contiue to munch on all the food around.  So lets see how this goes and I will update on you guys if I am still Overeating to the extremes.

Great Workout :]

Yesterday I finally got my new gym membership and it was amazing!  Out of the three gyms in my town I like Solano Athletic Club the best. The Dover location has a great indoor pool and aqua aerobic classes and the Holiday site has a secluded workout area, a lot of strength training machines and racket ball courts! 24 hour fitness has great hours but I don't like how it is so open up front and the classes aren't that diverse, I just feel uncomfortable there. The enrollment fee for one club access is $77.97 and the monthly fee is 33.99.  That is a little bit cheaper then Solano Athletic but I want to feel comfortable because I know if I don't feel comfortable then I wont go that often.  The great thing about if I went to 24 hour is that it is open 24 hours which would be great with my work schedule because I don't get off work until 9:15 most days but right now not until 11:15, but honesty I am not going to even want to work out after work that late.  Then there is Lady fitness.  This is a very small gym and it doesn't have a swimming pool. Swimming to me is a great workout and wonderful for when my muscles are sore from the intense training.  The other thing is that it is all females, this is great if you hate the provocative stares from Dinosaurs and the complete male species. I want to be able to work out with my boyfriend (I am now considering putting him on my membership).
Well anyways I had a great experience getting my gym membership the other day. In the end I didn't pay a cent!  Since I am a student I pay $35 a month while regular price is $45. It is the holiday season so the gym has a few deals going on

1. If you donate a few cans of food you do not have to pay the enrollment fee so I brought a big ol' bag of canned food for them.
2. Because I am a returning member they had this deal now that I can get the first month for FREE. So I am now not going to be charged until January 5th.    
3. This is an all the time thing but it is still wonderful, I get 2 1hour sessions with a personal trainer.
 

I then worked out for an hour, I mean why not I just got it might as well start off on a good foot.  I biked 6 miles and ran on the elliptical for 1 and a half miles.  The elliptical is my favorite exercise machine, it just feels so great! The bike makes you feel like you are not working out the rest of your body and for me my legs are already in great condition.My stomach and my flabby arms are the problem areas.

Gym Drama

I wanted to go to the gym as much as possible during this vacation off from school but I shot myself in the foot.  Being a little punk I disrespected my step dad and he dropped me from the gym membership! There is a million and one things I can say about how wrong this is to me but Im not I am just going to suck it up.  I am 18 and I will have to make some hard chooses.  After crying a river I concluded that I am going to end my weight watchers membership and buy myself a gym membership. The way I see it is that I have all the tools for success on weight watchers...The Calculator, the plans, the steps and all that good stuff. The membership is good for motivation and encouragement.  I can use this for that, I don't want to let my readers down (lol all of me and my boyfriend lol). Plus as a struggling college student I cant afford both. $40 for motivation or $35  for a  Gym membership. You do that math.  The other tools of weight watchers I actually don't use. I have the eTools but it hasn't clicked for me yet.  And honesty I believe that Spark Peoples site is better. It is easier to use, prettier and frankly there is a lot more things that you can do on that site.... All for free to put the fat free whip cream on top of that. lol.

I am going to admit that I am going to miss the stickers and cheers from the other members and the social gathering that my leader did such as weight watchers cookies exchange. Yummy! LoL I always did think it was funny though that you got a group of overweight people together and have a room full of food. But a good idea of mine is that I can go to the dollar store and buy a whole bunch of stickers and a nice scale so I can have my boyfriend reward me.  So I will countiue to go until my monthly pass runs out on Jan 11th.

First Five Pounds

My first week I lost 3.8 Lbs making my weight 175.6. That was an ok start for and actually pretty healthy.  They say that the healthy weight lost is only one to two pounds a week.  I want to be healthy and to know that I am not just going to gain the weight back the next day.  Anywho.. today was my 3rd meeting and I lost 1.6 Lbs this week. That is understandable with my Grandma just passing away and it being finals week. I will admit it I wasn't following it that closely this week. I drank large 24 oz cups of the fattening sugary coffees to keep me up all night studying, and many chocolate bars to help with my loss.  This is so destructive! I want to stop using food as a crutch!  How ever with those two weeks combined I have now lost 5.4 pounds!  This is very exciting and I have a lovely yellow sticker that has a 5 on it in my booklet.  I feel like I am in kindergarten again loving stickers and I cant wait to be able to receive another one!
   
Another challenge for me with being on weight watchers is that I have zero control about what food is around me.  My parents don't make that great of money were they can buy all the healthy foods, that's America for you- they make it easier to eat a cheese burger from Mcdonalds then to eat a salad.  Not to mention I am never home anymore so my mother doesn't like to go food shopping.  I am always on the go.  Many nights I spend the night at my boyfriends house and he likes to sleep in and never eats breakfast.  I feel uncomfortable eating while no one else in his house is. When i am not at Kevin's house I am at school or at work at the mall. Food is expensive!  I can not spend 20 dollars for 2 weeks anymore it is just impossible.   A little fruit bowl and a drink is 6 bucks at the school cafeteria.  I want to lose weight but I am not made of money.   One thing that I will need to do is to look up some healthy cheap quick snacks and meals I can take on the go.

I went to the gym for the first time in a long time today. It was really nice I worked out on the elliptical for 30 mins. and I did some bicycle crunches.  The sad part about it is that I had the guy set me up to a fat measure.

• I am 37.2% Fat
• That means I am obese
• The highest of the average range was 31
• My BMI is 31.8. This is very high. This is considered obese
• A BMI of 24.9 is the highest in the healthy range. 

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The Journey Begins

"Even if you are on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there."

Hi! My name is Destiny (the one on the left). I am a college student who is trying to not only not get the famous freshman 15 but to lose 50 LB. I have just  bought a Weight Watchers membership and I am hoping for great things with it. I can't just stick with one type of advice however just because there are so many great weight loss advice and tips and nutritional guide lines. I did go threw a fad diet faze but for now on for the rest of my life I really want to to be healthy and tone. I know that there is no quick weight loss trick that is healthy. My weight has fluctuated through out my life and at my heaviest I was 195. At the beginning of the summer I bunckered down and started to work out a lot and eating healthier.  But as it always goes life got in the way and before I knew it starting college, getting a new job, and entertaining my boyfriend left little time for me to take care of my self and work out.  I know that is an excuse. I should always find time for my health or I will be forced to find time in sickness.  I thought I had gained all my weight back but actually had a pleasant surprise at my first weight watchers meeting.
When I Started Weight Watchers (Nov. 19th 2010)

• Weight- 179.4 

• Goal- 130 ...10% Weight Goal- 161.5

• Arms- 15.5 in. 

• Hips- 41in

• Bust-44in

• Waist-43 in

• Thigh- 24 in