Holiday Sabatoge

Starting a new lifestyle around the holiday time is extremely difficult. Only the tough and mighty will triumph and I have proven to not be among those.  So many get togethers that revolve around food, dates because your souse wants to treat you to a nice meal, holiday overcooking, overeating, multiple dinners when you have to split your time between different family members, and now left overs of the sinfully delicious food.  I am ashamed to say that I believe that I gained all my weight back.  I don't want to make excuses and wait til January like most people are I want to start now! Everyday is a day that you can get your life back on track and everyday that you don't get back on the horse is another day of your life that you just wasted.  I don't want to spend even extra day with this weight but I am still vulnerable. I still have cravings, over eat, and cant say no to desert or going out to eat. But everyday I will get stronger and will reach my goal.  My boyfriend loves me for me and doesn't want to change but says he is ok with my weight loss decision. He tries to be supportive and soon he is going to get a gym membership also for motivation and competition. His food  support is more on the rocky side however. And that is where my inter strength is going to have to grow stronger.  I cry when I see my self naked and I am so disturbed about my looks. This is terrible to my self esteem but I am ready to stop complaining and just do something about it!  Tomorrow I will discover if I lost or gained weight but I will not hold my breath for a lost.  Happy Holidays everyone!